The Silver Linings Playbook Chapter 9

If I BackslideKnowing that if I deport the wrong thing, veronica will say I be in possession of ruined her night the way she did that one time when I wore Bermuda shorts and sandals to a dress-up dinner I cant stop thinking about(predicate) what I am overtaking to wear to her dinner party, so much that I dont horizontal remember its Friday, and therefore, time to pull in Dr. Patel, until Mom calls round in the mediate of my workout, saying, Were leaving in fifteen minutes. Hit the showerIn the foul room, I pick the brown chair. We recline, and drop says, Your mother tells me youve had quite a week. Want to talk about it?So I tell him about Veronicas dress-up party and how my old dress clothes dont fit because I consider lost so much weight, and I have no swank clothes other than the shirt my chum has recently given me, and I am pretty stressed out about going to a dinner party and wish I could just spend few time alone with Ronnie lifting weights, so that I would not have to see Veronica, who even Nikki says is a mean person.Dr. Patel nods a few times akin he does, and then says, Do you like the new shirt your brother gave you? Do you life comfortable wearing it?I tell him I absolutely love my new shirt.So wear that one to the dress-up dinner, and Im certainly Veronica will like it too.Are you sure? I ask. Because Veronica is genuinely particular about what you should wear to dinner parties.Im sure, he says, which makes me feel a whole lot better.What about gasp?Whats wrong with the pants you have on now?I look down at the tan khakis my mom purchased for me at the Gap the other day because she says I shouldnt wear sweatpants to my doctors appointments, and even though the pants are not as swanky as my new Eagles jersey, they do look okay, so I shrug and stop worrying about what to wear to Veronicas dinner party.Cliff tries to get me to talk about Kenny G, but I only fold my eyes, hum a single note, and silently count to ten every(prenomin al) time he says Mr. Gs name.Then Cliff says he knows that I have been rough with my mother, shaking her in the kitchen and knocking her down in the attic, which makes me really sad because I love my mom so much and she pull through me from the bad place and has even signed all those legal documents and up to now I cannot rightly deny what Cliff has said. My chest heats up with ungodliness until I cant take it. Truth be told, I break down and cry sobbing for at least five minutes.Your mother is risking a lot, because she believes in you.His words make me cry even harder.You want to be a good person, dont you, Pat?I nod. I cry. I do want to be a good person. I really do.Im going to up your meds, Dr. Patel tells me. You power feel a little sluggish, but it should jock to curb your violent outbursts. You need to know its your actions that will make you a good person, not desire. And if you have any more episodes, I might have to recommend that you go back to the neural health i nstallation for more intensive treatments, which No. Please. Ill be good, I say quickly, sagacious that Nikki is less likely to return if I backslide into the bad place. commit me.I do, Dr. Patel replies with a smile.